audiepies

It’s official. This 6th day of June, year 2008, I think I’ve
lost a friend.

I’ve been in not-so-good relationships before, have had
several regrets, but I never lost a friend before – not this way.

I have nothing else to blame but my erratic emotions. One
moment I’m okay, the other I’m weeping and drowning myself in tears because of
the unrequited love. I am blaming myself. It’s all my fault. Only that I wished
he was more straightforward and just dumped me. I wish he just told me that he
doesn’t like me nothing more than a friend than suffering 7 months of hoping. 

I miss the times we’ve spent together as friends. I only
have the memory of the Sky is the limit, mcdonald’s, pizza, Timezone, Friday’s,
G4, MRT, LRT, UST, UP, Bahay ng Alumni, Mini-stop, Cubao, dimsum and dumplings,
I am Legend, Fazolis, Jack’s loft, Decades, Metrowalk, Viva, Recto, 7/11,
P.Noval, Taxi rides without aircon, flyff, dota, 11,000 pesos worth of calls,
jamming, videoke, Japanese series, youtube vids, petty quarrels… the list goes
on.

I am so effed up. I miss the friend he was to me. I miss the
times that we were “okay”. Though I’ll never forget the times that he screwed
up, accusing me of things and then at the end it’s me who’s at fault. I had my
own share of mistakes. Pride created the distance, prejudice destroyed us, and my
love was wasted.

Eventually, I’m going to be okay.

~ by audiepies on June 5, 2008.